Uh so I’m absolutely exhausted and falling asleep because I couldn’t fall asleep until 2 and woke up at like 8 and got up at 9 and all I want right now is to nap but the whole point of waking up so early was so that I’d start falling asleep earlier again.
Step two of operation go to bed early: do some DAMN exercise.
I swear the first thing I’m doing when I have a job is joining a gym so I can start building some strength and endurance again bc right now my body looks great but it can’t do shit and I have no hunger cues and I’m 1000x more tired than I should be given my level of activity so.
Pray 4 me ugh.
I have a job interview on Friday :)
I got my lobes pierced two weeks ago and I am too impatient to wait another four weeks and/or however long it takes to get my ass into gainful employment to get a whole bunch more. Ew.
So the Sunday Times used a same sex kiss (alongside men impaled on buildings and organ harvesting, btw) as an example of the new Dr Who as having a ‘darker edge’ and I’m angry because this is a prime example of a ‘think of the children’ attitude towards queer visibility in the media and it Needs To Stop.
Hi I’m back and my hair is still too long and my boobs have grown and I have a tan and a cold and I found my favourite v neck. How has your week been?
Anonymous said: What's been happening friend? I hope that your absence verges on intriguing rather than concern x
yep yep yep I’m all good, I’ve been visiting friends then on holiday in Barbados and now I’m staying with my girlfriend. I’ll be back soon :)
Anonymous said: Hi there, so I just got back from a 5 day canoeing trip 2 days ago, and I want to keep up the exercise. I don't have a gym membership or anything, but I do have weights at home and I can access the internet. I was just wondering if you have any idea if I could keep up the workouts like canoeing. (I canoed for 8 hours one day and the other 4 I canoed over 2 hours)
Well you can’t work out for 8 hours evrru day! to keep up the same sort of upper body work you could find a simple strength training program online and do it 3 times a week-ish, and then maybe do some jogging or workout videos for cardio and strength. you only need to work out for about an 40 minites to an hour a few times a week to get fit.
littlemistakes said: maybe it’s your head telling you to care but your body is just like SHUT UP HEAD IVE LISTENED TO YOU LONG ENOUGH AND IT DIDNT BRING ME MUCH GOOD OK BYE or something
So annoying though when I’m listening to my body and my body is like nah not hungry because normally it would be the other way round where I’m thinking ‘surely I don’t need to eat this much’ but I am just constantly hungry. There must be a reason for it. I’d think nothing of it if I wasn’t also losing weight.
I mean I berate myself constantly for not eating enough but I don’t do anything about it.
Why do i have no appetite?
Why do I hate being this thin and yet manage to still be SO resistant to gaining weight just because I have this stupid association that gaining weight is bad EVEN if I want to be bigger.